disapointed with how things have gone. very little has improved. yay for a job… but ive never hated a job so quickly in my life. the job and the ppl i work with, to sum it up, if you didnt want to keep me you shouldve fired me stop making me feel like your putting up with me. i am working my ass of for you people and its apparently not good enough? im very confuzed. trying not to let it eat at me. hopefully i can find something  worth while. problem is the area everyone is in the same boat , the 2 main big office companies are apparently also awful to work for so its very difficult call. id rather be working 4am shifts at my old work then this. i wish there was a place like this here. im hoping to get in to the wee place in the mall nothing yet. but i can still hope. in this small town surprisingly no real small coffee places , like family places of any kind to get in on. so i guess we will see. oh also i couldve had a great time working at the other location of my current place. i was scheduled as such that if i do … it will fuck me over and… might not be able to ie) 3 hour shifts in time slots that would not allow me enough time to get between places. i honestly feel sabotaged. sorry its the truth, i get a possible extra 12 hours a week which would be perfect, and i might not be able to take them bc my work has me working mini shifts at stupid times.are you fucking kidding me.so yeah i hope i can find something reliable anywhere.

love is still lovely we’ve lived together for almost a year now and are going great ( thank god) and gabirel is nice and healthy he is such a beefcake now!have had some great friend outings and such and xmas/my birthday plans look exciting.!

my art is going ok but im still not advancing as id like but i guess no one does. i hope i can get to a happy point with it.

i was trying to find out why one of my shows was cancelled that had been on for like 6 seasons, i couldnt really find any real reason or reiable one but one thing that was sited, not job stress or life stress ” oh the host has come out as bisexual so they have a lot of stuff to sort out” was the sum of the quote. that has NOTHING  to do with  the show we never see any of their love lives or friends so ?!! im sorry my sexuality does not come in to play at my work and its none of anyones business so why the hell was this sited. grrrr.

ok thats my strange random post

The girls that glare when they see you, although they’ve never met you. The bitches that judge you, but don’t try to get to know you. I hate girls like that, they’re annoying and shallow. Grow the fuck up.

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i ran into this yesturday when i was applying for a job.. acutally ive ran into it alot doin that ( im on a major job hunt) and i just dont fucking get it stop giving me a stupid attuide bc im acutally awsome to work with so deal with it…. i love surprising ppl .. the other day from a friend of my bf exs ” i didnt want to like you but.. your kinda awsome” fucking right.

tanify:

Recently in Aurora, Colorado a 24 year old man named James Holmes, open fired in a theatre at the the sold out Batman premiere. He shot a total of 71 people, and killed 12. The victims of this tragedy had not asked for this, and did not deserve this. Among them were a 6 year old girl, who’s mother is in critical condition from the shooting and has not learned that her baby girl is dead. Another victim lost his life while shielding his girlfriend of 2 years.

My heart and prayers have and will go out to the families, and friends of the victims and also to the people wounded, as i hope that they fully recover from this tragedy. 

Please reblog this even if it doesn’t fit your blog type, it wont make your blog look “ugly”.

I would really like to see how many notes we can get this, to show the families of the victims that they are in our hearts, and we are praying for them. 

you fell at my feet and gave me love that I needed despite being loved you knew i was shamefully empty as i know i should not be

carrier bought as you appeared to be losing your fight

doctor sought

50/50 chances given

sad drive home

you are a rollarcoster of ups and downs

just be alright.. mummy and daddy will do whatever it takes if you make it

this will be the longest 2 weeks of your lives , hours drag on

we are those parents , barely eating sleeping drinking coffee watching over you

know we love you and if you make it, your rescue will be the greatest presant your daddy couldve given me

we want your cuts to heal , your fuilds replenished, your bones hidden by healthy flesh

who ever abandoned you weeks ago is disgraceful

we are you family now sweet white skinny cat

thank you for the instant love and affection you gave us reguardless

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now im going to steal a quick cuddle from the broken cat that is in my bathroom we saved from the streets night before last

mishasminions:

HOW DO I STOP LAUGHING

i dont know where these ppl find or make these things… they are just great arnt they ? <3 stay on the good side of the fan girl no crazies!

since i last posted.

tryin to keep it togther ie) developing my art and job searching

relocated

have a amazing boyfriend

i miss my friends

Just stop reblogging pretty girls in bikini’s and shirtless boys for a second and reblog this, please.